We didn’t try to go swimming. My friend Rhea have us masks. I bought groceries from the restaurant supply place that does curbside delivery. My friend Joseph stopped by and sat in the yard and we chatted from the porch. My mom’s handy man came over and didn’t mow all my newly planted strawberry plants. We had Thai takeout for our weekly exciting food night. I like weekly takeout. I want to support all the wonderful restaurants near me.
In job news, I got furloughed. So I won’t be paid for a week this month or next. I took a vacation day for today and I totally did work. I can’t do that when I’m furloughed. That is going to be hard for me. My job doesn’t consume my identity, I don’t need it, but damn do I enjoy it. I miss my physical library, but there is much I can do for the institutional repository from home. I have taken on a number of practicum students. Much will get done, much will be taught and learned. I’m excited about it. Being furloughed feels extremely inconvenient on a number of fronts.
Most everyone I know are having a hard time of it. I’m worried about a number of my friends, especially the folks with depression. It feels like gravity has been turned up, and they’re the folks who tend to be carrying the most.
I had a busy and beautiful day. I’m tired. This is my almost 3am post. Time to return to head to bed! Good night internet.
because you are trying to protect yourself from something by saying it hurts dumb people, so it can’t hurt me but it can
because Darwinism isn’t about what you think it is about because Darwin isn’t about what you think he is because my relationship to the history of science and to the history of faux science runs deep, and the meaning of your statement expands in my mind way beyond what you mean and it fills me with despair
you wish death on people you relish the idea of a deserved death inside a mad world where death comes to the people helping us to the people helping them
also Social Darwinism is steeped in a history of rich American racism a racism that is reflected in the deaths in my city why is this killing black people? because the society we live in doesn’t believe black lives matter I don’t know how to navigate when you say ‘Darwinism’ what I hear is I don’t understand history I don’t understand science I’m scared I’m angry I want to feel in control of the uncontrollable
and to me it means you are just as bad as the people you wish harm on and I don’t know how to explain I am too interested in the history of science I am steeped in pop science and faux science of the past I can’t explain to you that this isn’t what Darwin would have wanted that this isn’t how evolution works this isn’t about evolution, or Darwin or Social Darwinism
you don’t know about the racist history of science the intersections of eugenics and meaning-making
every time I read your comments of – Let Darwinism take them out – Give them a Darwin award I hear an echo of a history of racism and hatred that I can’t convey I don’t know how to explain it’s a history deep and old and it isn’t about science and it is about hatred and division and
please stop it please don’t say it anymore I don’t want to read it every time I do I revisit a history you don’t care about and I can’t stop you
you say ‘natural selection’ with a sneer like it will protect you like it will save you and that isn’t how it works you’re looking at death and making it the other
the facebook snooze function saves friendships if you don’t like what I’m saying now try snoozing me disappear my posts for 30 days and after that time I’ll likely be the same, but maybe you’ll have grown snooze me snooze friends snooze family snooze frienimes snooze strangers snooze at will (and don’t forget to snooze Will) happy snoozing
I played Ticket to Ride (the app of the boardgame) on Monday with my friend Joseph. The game has a basically unusable chat feature and while I enjoyed the game it highlighted what I was missing (hanging out with my friend) more than it scratched my itch to game. It did reignite my desire to game.
Last night, I played Die Crew on weird unwieldy software mostly in German (http://brettspielwelt.de/Community/Download/) remotely with friends in both Madison Wisconsin and New York City. We paired the software with Google Hangouts for voice and face viewing. The game is a cooperative trick taking card game with a space theme. I like it! And I look forward to playing it more.
Today I played two player Tsuro, which is a wildly different game at two player. With more players (it plays up to 8 beautifully) and it is light but feels much more like chance than strategy. Two player gives room for deeper strategy. I played this with card board bits face to face with my husband creature and it was wonderful.
This evening we began playing a legacy game which we bought back in 2018 after Joseph described it with such glowing praise that I bought it before the conversation was finished.
How did the first game go? Well we (ET, Rose and I) messed up and didn’t actually play the first legacy game, we just played normal pandemic. We won! Winning was wonderful. I look forward to playing more.
Is it in bad taste to play pandemic during a pandemic?